i don't fucking care. if you all fucking think. that i faked it. fuck off. you don't know my life. ignorance just rules your brain. fine, this is truth, i faked it, so that i wouldn't have to do the talk. are you happy? are you fucking satisfied now? that's the bloody truth. if you want it to be.
but it's not the truth. but being you, you'll believe it. and since you already belived the lie, i'm not gonna bother telling you what really happened.
are you pissed because something unbelivable-to-most happened to me? i used to bitch about someone, because i knew her inside out, so i had the right to state facts, unlike you who serve stories fresh from your dirty brew. but now you made me realise, that the person i bitched about all along, wasn't all that bad.
all i know is that you're an innocent little short girl, that everyone considers as cute, and you backstab others, and you don't even feel bad about it. in fact, you'll just keep gossiping about what's not true, and just cos it's not you, you'll bitch about people who never even harmed you. i love your personality, you're my idol, and i love that you bitch behind my back. xoxo.

no no noooo....
not again.
at least give him the jab, that's heartless already
why make him die slowly, throbbing and painfully,
i've suffered heartache once, if this is gonna happen to all my pets, i'm just gonna get a mental stroke.
God, why does this have to happen...now. WHY...

This is the first time i've ever felt so devastated over not getting a new technology item thing.

i've never wanted more. but this time, i'm not satisfied with my iphone 3. and then people who hear would scorn and say, wth?! you have an iphone 3 and you're not satisfied?

okay, it's not like i can do anything about it. but who the hell wants a phone with no paid apps, cos my father doesn't want me to repurchase things. and my itunes screwed up my iphone so now none of the bloody paid apps work and i'm living off almost nothing. I hate my phone so much i'm willing to trade it for someone with a nokia or sony ericsson or whatever that can at least get signal in class and can sms! i can't sms in class cos my shitass phone can't get signal

and what's the point of giving me unlimited when i'm stuck with a dammit phone that can't sms at the times i need to sms most. THERE'S A SHIT LOT I CAN'T DO WITH MY CURRENT PHONE!

so last week, my father told me he'd be helping me get a new plan, cos my current plan gives me 300 free smses and i never manage to stay within the limit. with the new iflexi plan, i'll get unlimited sms, just what i need, but most of all, it requires me to get a new iphone. he said, since that, he'd be getting an iphone 4 for me. awesome, the new iphone 4 just came out too. i don't really care which iphone it is, but as long as it's a new phone WITH HELL SIGNAL, i don't mind at all.

TODAY'S THE BIG DAY. dingdong 'excuse me sir? you ordered this iphone 4?'

just when i thought i could finally get back doodlejump, diner dash, plants vs zombies, and most of all, all my taptaps and finally get to start playing after no practice for like 8 months, PLUS getting to sms in class, getting to take pictures of stuff immediately and not have to wait a freaking 30 secs for my stupid camera to load till the thing i want to take a picture of has disappeared, in addition to people being able to hear me on the phone instead of now when all that comes out are jerky sounds that no one can make out, JUST when i was thinking of all this, waiting for this grand day, having a source of inspiration some how,



'They provided an adapter for the new microcard they issued you. So you can still use your same phone!' - dad squeals excitedly.



maybe you don't get it. but all that excitement, all that adrenaline rush, it vanished even faster than you could imagine, and it all happened so suddenly i found myself sobbing in my room.



i can imagine you saying: what a bitch, crying over an iphone. i might as well consider myself lucky for having one.



i don't care if you understand a word i've said. right now, i'm at a loss...there's nothing much i can do with my phone (except play free apps?! which aren't even fun!!) while i'm in school. can you picture yourself, it's like having your phone confiscated and only returned to you when you leave school after 3pm if you're lucky. on other days, like cca, it's just 6pm when you finally receive a form of signal.



MY FATHER'S GONNA USE THE IPHONE FOUR, OKAY?! AND I THINK HE NEVER INTENDED TO GIVE IT TO ME IN THE FIRST PLACE

SO WHY BUILD ME UP AND BREAK ME DOWN?! HE SHOULD NEVER HAVE MENTIONED THE FACT THAT I'D BE GETTING A NEW BLOODY PHONE. FUCK

cliche stuff it seems, but it's really unfair..
sometimes some people are provided with stuff that
while others try searching for the same stuff, and keep failing.

used to feel we were actual besties, but now we seem so close yet so far.
physical distance really makes it hard. sigh, and the longer it gets, the more distance accumulates. to top that, there're even stuff like sugar cubes and candy canes along the way, which make you want to stop and savour what entices you for now, only right now. stuff that prevent you from thinking what you really want for your future. if only we knew.. well, what's God's plan..?

wish i'd get knocked down by a car or something and not have to go to school till next year. school sucks. friking lots

technically, i am in trouble.
if you've done it, i haven't.
chinese SIA, chinese book report x 5, physics sia to be redone, QT
and ze whole weekend should have been bidden farewell to long before today.

stop trying to get on my nerves, without trying, you already are.
your bmi's like 16 and you're complaining you're fat.
yeah, just so everyone'll say 'no come on you're so skinny, you're not fat at all!'
does that help reassure you that you're a little powerpuff girl who likes sugar spice and everything nice?

you're nice but highly annoying so shut up.

hang on..i'll reply your email in a while..sorry>< just been super busy, when i thought i was super free. sigh...

I used to think you were a perfect Christian.
Maybe you are, but i don't think so. Or maybe all this, it's all part of your plan to spread the Word. I don't know. But i wish you could stay my inspiration. If you weren't a Christian, you'd be almost perfect in my eyes.